[Jason watches this for a minute, and maybe, because he's stupid, he thinks: oh, this is fine.
He reaches for Bruce's hand when they untangle.]
B.
Stay.
[He had asked him to stay, earlier. He thinks that's what he's saying now, too, and I love you too and I love you but I don't know how to form the words and you should know it, I love you, except that when it comes out of his mouth it sounds like stay.
But the pleasure is thick in his voice and thick against his body, and he's so tired. He wants to wake up with Bruce right there, and he wants to be able to tell him, when he doesn't feel tangled up in the headiness of a post-orgasmic haze.]
[ Bruce decides it's okay if he doesn't say it back. It feels a little like suffocating, but it's for the best really. He shouldn't have let this go on for so long. The first time should have been the last. He should have controlled himself. But that was a problem he intended to fix.
His fingers curl around Jason's hand when he reaches for him and he rolls onto his side so he can look at him for a minute. And he decides: Jason was never the mistake. How could he be? When he makes this city a more bearable place just by being in it? Jason isn't the mistake. Loving him isn't the mistake. It's Bruce. He lifts that hand to his lips and kisses it. Almost like a goodbye. ]
[He's warm; he's happy. He loves him and there's Bruce, kissing him, and Jason grips his hand. It feels like being accepted again, the first time that Jason's felt this way in a long, long time. Maybe ever.
He nudges in a little closer, just enough to smile and put one hand on Bruce's thigh.
He thinks; I love you and get some rest and he hears I'll be right here.]
Okay B.
[He's already half-drowsing, too high on endorphins to know the mess that Bruce is going to make as soon as he thinks that he can move without waking Jason up.]
[ He stays, for however long it takes for Jason to sleep and when it's safe, Bruce slips away and into the night. It pained him, like being stabbed in the heart and being left to bleed out. But it's for the best. Life would go on. It had to.
However Jason tries to reach out to him in the ensuing hours are ignored. At least, until Jason forces him to pay attention. ]
[He wakes up to a cold bed and he didn't expect that, but he doesn't think it's bad; he thinks that Bruce got a call or something, so he just messages him with a woke up, thinking of you kind of thing, and waited.
And heard nothing.
He messages a couple more times that day, but doesn't think too much of it, doesn't worry, until later, until a day passes and then another. He knows that Bruce is okay, because he spots him in the night, because he hasn't heard word otherwise and he would have heard if Bruce Wayne was dead.
So by night three he's furious at getting ghosted, and his messages start getting mean, but-
-but then his temper catches up with him and Jason can't take it anymore. He knows it's a tantrum. He knows it's childish, but still, he comes to the cave when Bruce isn't there, even more annoyed that while Bruce is being a bitch he hasn't locked him out. He can't possibly explain why it's so annoying, but it is.
He knows he's on camera, too, so he casually flips the camera the bird, and then-
-and then he disassembles the backup server, grabs the Batcomputer, dumps it in one of the cars, and takes the car. He knows he's going to be running on time when Bruce catches wind and disables it remotely, but by the time the car starts to slow down Jason just grabs the computer and starts hauling it on foot to his closest safehouse.
It turns out to be a safehouse that all the Robins use, but that isn't important. He's not really trying to hide.]
[ If he's going to let this go, he has to cut the cord. So Bruce silences all of Jason's correspondence, except on the emergency line. If Jason really needed him, Bruce would be there. But he wouldn't entertain anything else. He couldn't. It made life difficult, but Bruce could deal with difficulty. He's trained by it, honed by it. It just didn't make missing Jason any easier.
But he managed. Three whole days before he considered reaching out. But he suits up for patrol instead and throws himself into the work. His cowl alerts him while he broods on one of the tower buildings littering Gotham's skyline. A disturbance in the cave. One of the backup servers returns an offline status and Bruce didn't need to to check the surveillance or the log of the most recent visitors. He knew immediately who the culprit is and he's swooping off into the night to confront him.
The tracker embedded in the server leads him to the safehouse and he comes in through the window, ready to greet Jason. He's not hostile. A little annoyed -- he's going to have to replace that server -- but not angry. ]
If you needed information, you could have just asked.
He is sitting with the computer between them, a hammer in hand, because he will absolutely go berserk if he feels like he needs to. He is on the floor with his long leg curved around the computer, no less.]
Oh, is that how I could have gotten you to answer your phone?
All the texts I sent, like the ones asking you to call me, they weren't enough?
[ He's angry enough for the both of them. Bruce wants to reach for him, pull him up and tug him into his arms. But he keeps his distance. Less so because Jason might try to hurt and more because Bruce needed to keep his resolve in tact. ]
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He reaches for Bruce's hand when they untangle.]
B.
Stay.
[He had asked him to stay, earlier. He thinks that's what he's saying now, too, and I love you too and I love you but I don't know how to form the words and you should know it, I love you, except that when it comes out of his mouth it sounds like stay.
But the pleasure is thick in his voice and thick against his body, and he's so tired. He wants to wake up with Bruce right there, and he wants to be able to tell him, when he doesn't feel tangled up in the headiness of a post-orgasmic haze.]
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His fingers curl around Jason's hand when he reaches for him and he rolls onto his side so he can look at him for a minute. And he decides: Jason was never the mistake. How could he be? When he makes this city a more bearable place just by being in it? Jason isn't the mistake. Loving him isn't the mistake. It's Bruce. He lifts that hand to his lips and kisses it. Almost like a goodbye. ]
Get some rest.
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He nudges in a little closer, just enough to smile and put one hand on Bruce's thigh.
He thinks; I love you and get some rest and he hears I'll be right here.]
Okay B.
[He's already half-drowsing, too high on endorphins to know the mess that Bruce is going to make as soon as he thinks that he can move without waking Jason up.]
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However Jason tries to reach out to him in the ensuing hours are ignored. At least, until Jason forces him to pay attention. ]
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And heard nothing.
He messages a couple more times that day, but doesn't think too much of it, doesn't worry, until later, until a day passes and then another. He knows that Bruce is okay, because he spots him in the night, because he hasn't heard word otherwise and he would have heard if Bruce Wayne was dead.
So by night three he's furious at getting ghosted, and his messages start getting mean, but-
-but then his temper catches up with him and Jason can't take it anymore. He knows it's a tantrum. He knows it's childish, but still, he comes to the cave when Bruce isn't there, even more annoyed that while Bruce is being a bitch he hasn't locked him out. He can't possibly explain why it's so annoying, but it is.
He knows he's on camera, too, so he casually flips the camera the bird, and then-
-and then he disassembles the backup server, grabs the Batcomputer, dumps it in one of the cars, and takes the car. He knows he's going to be running on time when Bruce catches wind and disables it remotely, but by the time the car starts to slow down Jason just grabs the computer and starts hauling it on foot to his closest safehouse.
It turns out to be a safehouse that all the Robins use, but that isn't important. He's not really trying to hide.]
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But he managed. Three whole days before he considered reaching out. But he suits up for patrol instead and throws himself into the work. His cowl alerts him while he broods on one of the tower buildings littering Gotham's skyline. A disturbance in the cave. One of the backup servers returns an offline status and Bruce didn't need to to check the surveillance or the log of the most recent visitors. He knew immediately who the culprit is and he's swooping off into the night to confront him.
The tracker embedded in the server leads him to the safehouse and he comes in through the window, ready to greet Jason. He's not hostile. A little annoyed -- he's going to have to replace that server -- but not angry. ]
If you needed information, you could have just asked.
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He is sitting with the computer between them, a hammer in hand, because he will absolutely go berserk if he feels like he needs to. He is on the floor with his long leg curved around the computer, no less.]
Oh, is that how I could have gotten you to answer your phone?
All the texts I sent, like the ones asking you to call me, they weren't enough?
[He looks angry enough for the both of them.]
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If you wanted my attention, you have it.
Talk to me.