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[ He could see the tears and honestly, this isn't how he wanted this to go. It's not how he'd planned for their relationship to end.

He could go. Probably should, since Jason is throwing him out, but Jason isn't the only one who feels like he's being pulled apart. Bruce had not been there for the explosion. But he wants to be here now, since this is all his fault.

It's stupid. He should go. But he doesn't. He pulls the cowl off and moves in closer to Jason so he can try to wipe his tears. So he doesn't feel like he's coming unraveled. ]

It wasn't meant to hurt you, Jason.

Edited 2025-09-30 00:59 (UTC)

[Because Jason isn’t good with his own pain, he lashes out.

Only this isn’t physical.]

Oh no? Oh, daddy, did it get too real for you? You missed my pretty hole but then realized that feelings would make it gross?

Maybe you should have thought of that six months ago when you thought it would be a good idea to put your cock in my mouth!

[His tone is mean, his voice deep and snarling.]

[ because words hit harder than any punch. Bruce would have preferred the punch to the face. The pain would fade. Jason's words cut deep and the worst part of it all? He's not completely wrong. ]

I wanted what was best for you.

[ And what was easiest for Bruce. It's easier to walk away when he thinks it's for someone else's own good and not his own. Bruce is the martyr you see. Sacrificing himself for everyone else. ]

I said it because I meant it. But you-- [ didn't say it back. ] I didn't want you to feel obligated.

You're such a fucking coward.

You could have waited a day, but no, you didn't get what you wanted right away and you left-

[He slams his hands into the wall behind him.]

You didn't want me to feel obligated, but you treated it like a goddamned test, that's not love, Bruce!

It wasn't a test.

[ It comes out sharper than he means for it to. He wants to lash out too, to push back on the idea that he's afraid. But he knows if he thinks about it, even for a moment, it feels like he's lying. He is afraid. ]

I just...I was giving you the out.

No, no.

[He shakes his head.]

You were giving yourself an out.

[He makes a deep throated noise.]

You might love me but you’re more afraid of me than anything.

[ For a moment, the mask slips and Jason gets all of the vulnerability Bruce doesn't show anyone else. It's in the subtle shift of his gaze--usually hard and unwavering, averted so he doesn't have to face the truth of it. His jaw tight, mouth set firm. ]

Maybe I am...

[ He shakes his head, whatever else he wants to say swallowed up in the dark. He reaches for the cowl to pull it back in place. ]

It doesn't matter what I feel.

[Jason watches, his jaw setting, and he goes quiet.]

Stop lying.

If what you feel didn’t matter you wouldn’t have left me.

I love you and I wish you would die.

[ It feels surreal to hear Jason say it. Like for a moment, he thinks he cannot be talking to him. There must be someone else he's speaking to. But there's no one here but him and Jason and Bruce is on the verge of leaving.

But he doesn't. He stands there feeling like an idiot--after too many minutes he says: ]

I love you too.

Fuck off.

You don’t love me. You don’t fucking do this shit to people you love!

[Jason yells it, and he moves forward and pushes at Bruce, once, and then again.]

Leave! I never want you to see me again, leave!

[ Bruce could brace himself, make himself an unmovable force if he wanted. But Jason shoves him and he moves. He would go, without another word or a glance back. ]

[Jason wants:

He doesn't know what he wants. He wants Bruce to want him, and he wants Bruce to leave, and he wants Bruce to apologize, and he wants Bruce to leave. He feels hysterical, like he's lost himself completely, furious and tired, and he hits Bruce again, in the shoulder, and then his arms are around him.]

You're so goddamned stupid.

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