[ He could see the tears and honestly, this isn't how he wanted this to go. It's not how he'd planned for their relationship to end.
He could go. Probably should, since Jason is throwing him out, but Jason isn't the only one who feels like he's being pulled apart. Bruce had not been there for the explosion. But he wants to be here now, since this is all his fault.
It's stupid. He should go. But he doesn't. He pulls the cowl off and moves in closer to Jason so he can try to wipe his tears. So he doesn't feel like he's coming unraveled. ]
[ because words hit harder than any punch. Bruce would have preferred the punch to the face. The pain would fade. Jason's words cut deep and the worst part of it all? He's not completely wrong. ]
I wanted what was best for you.
[ And what was easiest for Bruce. It's easier to walk away when he thinks it's for someone else's own good and not his own. Bruce is the martyr you see. Sacrificing himself for everyone else. ]
I said it because I meant it. But you-- [ didn't say it back. ] I didn't want you to feel obligated.
[ It comes out sharper than he means for it to. He wants to lash out too, to push back on the idea that he's afraid. But he knows if he thinks about it, even for a moment, it feels like he's lying. He is afraid. ]
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He could go. Probably should, since Jason is throwing him out, but Jason isn't the only one who feels like he's being pulled apart. Bruce had not been there for the explosion. But he wants to be here now, since this is all his fault.
It's stupid. He should go. But he doesn't. He pulls the cowl off and moves in closer to Jason so he can try to wipe his tears. So he doesn't feel like he's coming unraveled. ]
It wasn't meant to hurt you, Jason.
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Only this isnโt physical.]
Oh no? Oh, daddy, did it get too real for you? You missed my pretty hole but then realized that feelings would make it gross?
Maybe you should have thought of that six months ago when you thought it would be a good idea to put your cock in my mouth!
[His tone is mean, his voice deep and snarling.]
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I wanted what was best for you.
[ And what was easiest for Bruce. It's easier to walk away when he thinks it's for someone else's own good and not his own. Bruce is the martyr you see. Sacrificing himself for everyone else. ]
I said it because I meant it. But you-- [ didn't say it back. ] I didn't want you to feel obligated.
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You could have waited a day, but no, you didn't get what you wanted right away and you left-
[He slams his hands into the wall behind him.]
You didn't want me to feel obligated, but you treated it like a goddamned test, that's not love, Bruce!
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[ It comes out sharper than he means for it to. He wants to lash out too, to push back on the idea that he's afraid. But he knows if he thinks about it, even for a moment, it feels like he's lying. He is afraid. ]
I just...I was giving you the out.
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[He shakes his head.]
You were giving yourself an out.
[He makes a deep throated noise.]
You might love me but youโre more afraid of me than anything.