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[theknightshift]

[ Maybe at first. When the pain of losing them was still fresh. But the reality? No, they never weighed him down. Not even a little. ]

Is he okay?

[batsymbol]

I talked to him. Reassured him. He needs a lot of that.

[theknightshift]

He told me his Bruce was on his way to London while the Joker had him.

[batsymbol]

Yeah. Doesn’t sound like the kind of guy I’d like to run into here.

( if only because he might end up talking with his fists. )

[theknightshift]

Agreed.

Jason didn't know he's going to be resurrected when he goes home. I told him.

[batsymbol]

Was that wise? He's not from your Gotham. Things might be different for him.

( look at his bruce after all. )

[theknightshift]

He deserved to know.

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It's not your fault.

[theknightshift]

[ Yes it is. ]

He was my responsibility.

[batsymbol]

They all are to us.

( each and every one they take in as their own. no, he hasn't experienced that yet back in his own gotham, but here? here he's had damian and jason. he's lost damian before, even if it wasn't in death. a loss is still a loss to bruce and bruce has a penchant for never handling any sort of loss healthily. )

We do better for Jason here than he ever did for him back in his Gotham.

( at least that's what he's trying to do. )

[theknightshift]

[ That's the point isn't it? Seeing the mistake, learning it like muscle memory, so he never repeats it again. ]

Agreed.

[batsymbol]

Damian seems to think Jason's attached himself to me in a way that isn't healthy.

[theknightshift]

Possibly. He's been neglected his entire life.

[batsymbol]

Yeah.

( it’s a very heavy and tired yeah. as if the weight of expectations from others is beginning to suffocate and crush him. )

[theknightshift]

[ Welcome to fatherhood. ]

It's better than the alternative.

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Nothing I do ever feels right. Or enough.

( he hates how vulnerable he sounds to his other self with admitting that, but. he’s tired. he’s so fucking tired and he isn’t sure he’s not about to drown in it. )

[theknightshift]

[ Bruce reads the message. And then again. And a third time too. He gets the sense his counterpart is not handling the challenges of their family well and maybe a month ago, he would have told him to stop trying then. But instead there is a swell of empathy. There'd been a time when he was sure he wasn't doing everything he could. He still feels that way, but they love him and he loves them and that almost makes up for the shortfalls. ]

It isn't. But they love you anyway.

[batsymbol]

At least you’re sure of yourself with that.

( because he’s not. )

[theknightshift]

[ He wasn't always. It took time. ]

Give it time.

[batsymbol]

Sure.